Clues

I was wondering how Mr A would take the news if i told him i was being feminized. If i were to tell anyone at work it would be him. And that got me thinking about the clues that are evident to anyone who took the time to look. Maybe he knows already. Maybe all my collegues know but Mr A is too polite to mention.

Firstly there is the scent :~ Gloria Vanderbilt. I wear it every day together with a feminine deodorant and feminine talc.
Second there is my eyebrows :~ Plucked but not too thinly, definately noticeable if you look.
Third are my hands :~ Shaved smooth with nails that are growing for the first time ever.
Fourth is my demeanour :~ More subtle this one. But i believe the way i feel inside is changing the way that i interact with people.

I ask myself are these clues enough for someone to think "sissy alert!", but even if they are not, i still think that it's worth putting down where i am and how i look to others. Of course there are other aspects, like my body being smooth all over and my toenails being painted and the panties i wear but these are not visible to the general public.

Mistress txtd me at work to tell me She has bought me some new stockings and now i cannot wait to get home, especially as She has also spoken to the man She buys my cannabis from and he says he will have some tonight so i am looking forward to this evening very much. Also, because She txtd me i suppose i am to expect Her to txt me again at 5pm when She has Her break. In which case i will probably be instructed to put on my CB3000 for the evening. I will ensure i am bathed and shaved and perfumed and chastised for my wonderful Mistress.

Oh. Mistress txtd earlier with instructions to lock myself up. As soon as friend has been with weed She said. He is due in about 30mins. 6pm

Polish and The Pill

Mistress and i had a heart to heart. i was sad and She could see it. i told Her i missed taking the pill. i miss the way it made me feel. i tried to tell Her how i felt inside. So much more femme than i look. i told Her i was scared that She would still need a man to satisfy Her and how that would simply kill me, if She were to become involved with someone else. i asked Her if She was bisexual and She said no and i was, in a way, diappointed because at least then if i got more femme my loss of masculinity would not starve Her too much of what i am still convinced She will yearn for in years to come - sex with a man. And when i think of it like that i am shamed to think that i don't see myself as a mn now. i have sexual intercourse with Mistress once a month, sometimes twice and the male side of me feels inadequate. The female side of me wants to appease the male side of me by saying "ok let your Wife have Her hubby back and give Her a man in Her life again and stop being a sissy and be that man". And then it's just impossible. Hard to think about. Easier to comply.



Mistress said She would start me on two pills per week. In one months time.



I tried to explain how grateful i was. How nobody knew how i felt, even Her, but the words just , melted and i could feel myself going and next thing i was in Her arms and tears were welling up in my eyes.



I am so glad to have the pill to look forward to. i liked how it made me feel. Mistress says i am frustrated because i do not look like the person i feel inside anymore. She says i should be more considerate for other people and not wish to impose rose upon them. Mistress knows best because She is a woman.



Later this evening i paintedMistress and daughters toenails. It was a lovely girly night in watching the St Trinians movie. The boys had gone out drinking or whatever it is they do. After i had done their toes daughter asked if i still wanted mine doing. I did not need to be asked twice.

Mistress later told me to enjoy it, but not to rush daughter or to scare her with rose. i am still daddy to her.

Toenails or not toenails

i never had my toenails painted. i guess they were too busy. but was still a wonderful day. Mistress' mother came round and commented that i was getting more like a woman each time She saw me. She was referring to my red seethrough tunic and shaved legs and bracelet and pink slippers i think. Spent all day talking to Mother in Law and even shed a tear at some point when She was talking about Her last hubby passing away. Love to see Mistress talking to Her too.

jean phoned me last night. i was quite drunk and couldn't actually work out why she phoned other than to make absolutely sure we would be at the BBB and to say she had spoken Master S. and he would be glad to oblige and what would i be wearing and i told Him Mistress was thinking of collar and lead with a t-shirt that said Wifes Caged Hubby and jean said he would like a t-shirt too. When ii told Mistress this She was displeased that jean was being a little pushy and expecting some sort of treatment from Mistress. jokingly i asked Mistress if She was jealous because She thinks jean likes me and She made it clear the reason She disliked jeans approach was that it was al jean jean jean. i understood and asked Her to tell jean that in an email before we meet up.

Spent all of today, Sunday, uncaged. I have kept it untouched though and now am on webcam with 11 viewers whom i know not from adam. i hope they enjoy the view of me typing.

Oh yes! Someone offered to fly me and Mistress to the states if i would be his slave for a week. He said money was no problem. i gave him Mistress' email. Mistress did not seem to nonplussed at all.

And i have yet to tell Her about the sissy in the south of france who wants me to stay with him and his sister and his mom.

This evening Mistress said something about No1 son being softened up. She said it wouldn' hurt him.

Mistress caned me late tonight. It really hurt. I cannot remember what i said, but She caned me and then put me in my cage. Thank you Mistress. I love you

The bracelet

It seems that each day i am being allowed to express further my softer side. Mistress likes me to wear Her silver bracelet at all times. One of our sons questioned me about it yesterday and Mistress and daughter shot him down by telling him that they were going to paint my toenails gold glitter on tuesday.

Jean left me a voicemail yesterday morning, saying could i ask Mistress to phone her ASAP. Mistress phoned her and jean asked if she could pick Mistress and me up for the BBB next month. Mistress said we would meet her there. Then jean said she had spoken to Master S. and he will be meeting us and escorting us which is very kind of him. jean also asked Mistress if She would be kind enough to take jean under Her wing. Mistress said She would have to think about it.

Wendy Ann left Mistress a message. She was terrified the first time she came to see Mistress and we thought that she would not want to come again. But wendy ann (gary) said in his text that he cannot wait to see us both again. yikes!

Mistress txtd him back and said She wasn't available until early September due the school holidays. I bet he will dying to be sissified by then.

Toenails

I have painted my toenails once or twice. Mistress knew obviously. But tonight our daughter asked me why i was wearing mom's bracelet. i just said mom gave it me.

The Mistress said perhaps She and daughter should paint my toenails in that gold glitter polish they saw when shopping.

Omigod

Off the pill

Mistress has taken me off the pill for a while. She says there are other ways to feminize me initially. In a way i am glad because i do like having sexual intercourse with Her. One thing it means is that i cannot use the fact that i was taking Her pill as an excuse for wearing femme clothes etc. Now that the only things She is using to feminize me are Her own willpower and my desire to obey and please Her, i truly am a sissy male.

At work and out of my cage. Mistress is at lunch with Her friend. I wonder if i will be instructed to put the cb3000 on later today.

last night Mistress told me She would be asking our daughter to paint my toenails over the weekend sometime. Daughter is 13 and thinks the way i dress around the house is weird. not quite in a dress yet, but my shaved legs are always on show and i wear the sissiest of pink slippers with hearts on them.