Monday, 5 December 2011

Chastity Cage

I'm a lot less inclined, these days, to wear my cage. I imagine it's because we've slipped into a comfort zone whereby I am just sissy enough for her and not enough to be obvious.

Hence I wear panties 24/7. Sleep in a nighty. Shave my body smooth etc etc.

LAtely I haven't been able to visit certain websites. like imagefap. whenre I got quite hooked on all sorts of porn.

Especially, though, i enjoyed creating sissy captions. I'm hoping to be soon back to full sissy exposure, webcam and all.

My wife has given her approval to me finding a male companion, or a sissy one. Over the past couple of years I've made it clear that i am addicted to looking at cocks, and would love to service one. She takes it all in her stride. I don't think she is interested in another male, although I would like her to surprise me!

She is a good liar. So she might well be doing stuff I don't know about. I've never been able to read her completely.

I'm working from home today and I am wearing pink "boy style" panties. I'm thinking of masturbating but I always feel so embarassed when she comes in and i have my dicklet in my hand. I know it's bad to play with it all the time. Hence the chastity.

Maybe that's why I need male guidance. Someone who can command my respect and teach me how to be a better sissy. Someone with a nice cock that needs lots of attention from a grateful sissy.


I'm here again. Who would have thought it ? But now she knows that I like cocks I guess things might get sort of interesting looking forward.

Friday, 13 February 2009


It seems I couldn't follow my intentions and write more prolifically. however, I have had a new webcam so I thought I'd mention it.

I haven't been feeling particularly sissy recently. Maybe just lazy on my part. Maybe just not enough encouragement.

I am still looking for a Master albeit unsuccessfully. I might have to advertise in more relevant places, and also not be so choosey.

Who know's what the weekend may bring? I am hoping for lots of sleep and perhaps a chance to get fully made up for the cam. Maybe tonight - or tomorrow night. I would like to be caged for the weekend, just to keep me on my toes.

My trigger phrase - that phrase which, upon hearing it, I am compelled to lock up my penis - is "COCKETTE LOCKUP"

Sunday, 1 February 2009

Chastity Rules No 1 and 1a

I must try to get back into the swing of writing to you, dearest reader. Maybe even the banaalities of my life, if properly decorated, will provide something worth digesting. I think the winter has a definite effect upon me. Not a good one either.

It seems a chore more often than not to keep myself sissified. The shaving. Trying to lose weight. The recognition that i am not a very feminine person. I don't embrace those aspects of feminization that perhaps other sissies would. I hate shopping. I don't read women's magazines. I have no desire to become my wife's maid. And yet, the fantasy of it - of becoming her maid or her cuckold - seems so exciting.

Panties are an everyday item of wear. The cut or material has become largely irrelevant to me. I just wear them. The small things that could progress me seem of little interest to Julie. No pierced ears or tattoos. No punishments for nail biting. No chastity.

Chastity. It would be so easy to put the cage on now. Easier still to pretend to you, reader, that it has been on for a considerable time. I could go on webcam and pretend that i was much more submissive than i actually am. But, alas, the key is on her dressing table. Not around her neck. I could put the cb3000 on and then take the key to her. But i ask myself why? I have forgotten how it feels to be in it for 3 days. Some people say that 3 days is the point at which the belt comes into it's own. Up to 3 days can be done by anyone, but after that period it begins to cause a change in the thought processes. The initial bravado of the wearer begins to wane and he becomes more suggestible. The concept of release and the subsequent shame that can be felt from wanting that release becomes prevalent in the wearer's responses to his keyholder.

So, reader, if you are thinking of putting someone in chastity. Or are considering wearing a chastity device for someone else I would off my two most important rules for the slave and the keyholder.

Rule No 1 - The slave must agree to wear the device for at least 3 days and nights with no chance of possible release except for supervised cleaning.

Rule No 1a - The keyholder will take care to acknowledge the slave's predicament and will sexually arouse the locked slave at least twice a day.

I think if these two Rules were adhered to there would be increased electricity in a relationship.

Thursday, 29 January 2009

Wednesday, 28 January 2009

Monday, 26 January 2009

I'm Back

Hi reader. It's been a while, I know.

Christmas has been and gone and you may have been wondering where on earth I had gotten to.

Well, firstly the hard drive on the PC went which meant I was without net access for nearly a month, plus, more crucially, I tried to stop being a sissy. I grew my body hair back for three weeks and even started wearing boxer shorts to work.

For a while I was comfortable with this yet, as this post confirms, something clicked in my head recently resulting in my re-sissification.

As a condition of my reversion I have made it clear to Mistress Julie that i will be actively seeking other participants in my training. In particular, I have told her that I would like to serve a male dom , real time. She asks me to keep her informed on how my search is going.

As a consequence of my holiday from panties I have also rediscovered a somewhat dominant side in my own makeup which I intend to also pursue.

I have been spending a little time making sissy captions and fake images using corel paint. I've included two of them here. It's something i find amusing and absorbing and i hope to get better at it with time, especially the subliminal persuasions that can be hidden within the captions.

Finally an apology for not being around. It's nice to be back, reader. And if by chance you are a dominant male living within the West Midlands area, drop me a line. You never know.

Monday, 15 December 2008


Monday morning again. I am very bored. No work although i consider myself lucky to be sat here doing nothing. I am the only person in an office of about 100 people who is not on the staff and therefore i would be the easiest to sack. No redundancy money would be owed. So if they want me to sit around waiting for work I will.

The weekend was boring. A nice boring. I didn't dress much. I didn't chat online much.

Julie's mom came round for dinner on Sunday and got drunk. I didn't wear shorts or anything frilly after what happened last time.

Julie and i haven't had sexual contact for a few days.

Wednesday, 10 December 2008


Having spent all day yesterday in my chastity belt I was allowed out to shower during the early evening and then had to put it back on. I was very happy with this.

Last night in bed, however, Julie asked me if i wanted to be released. I was playing with her clit and we were watching lesbian porno. I of course said yes.

She ended up getting a good fucking. She said i should put the cage back on after i had finished but that must have been more in hope than anything. If she wanted me to sleep in the cage she should never have let me out.

I'm not in the cage now. It may well be weeks before i wear it again, and it's all because Julie wanted my cock.

We did it missionary. I was wearing a nighty and stockings and cockring. She was wearing a smile.

It may have been because of an email i sent her on Monday. The body of which i have included below.


Imagine my cock sliding into you from behind.

I will have already made you wet with a good tongue fucking. But eventually you will beg for cock up your cunt.
You'll get on your knees, legs spread, begging for cock. rubbing your clitty in anticipation of feeling the hard pole stretching your lips apart and then pumping you.

you'll start to fuck yourself against the cock. Your arse quivering as the flesh of my cock rubs your cuntlips , in and out.

You'll beg me to cum inside you. I will think of your dripping cum filled pussy whilst i sit at work now.

Love you. xxx

Tuesday, 9 December 2008


Am i a submissive?

Big question. I never really thought of myself as one. I don't fit the stereotype. I don't need to be dominated, yet, in my actions and my fantasies i am. I cannot argue that i am not a sissy. I am most definately a sissy. I am at work now, pantied and chastised. But does that make me a submissive?

Am i happier now? I am not sure. Perhaps if when I was the more "controlling" force in our marriage we had taken steps to solidify those roles by endevouring to meet others in the lifestyle then those roles would have remained. but what happened is that it became difficult to maintain the intensity of a D/s relationship over 20 years. Especially when there were only two players.

But how did i come to be like this? Was it really as simple as a mere role reversal? Was Julie unhappy acting as my muse for all those years, enduring the bondage and beatings? She never seemed unhappy with it. Indeed, some of her most vociferous orgasms have been whilst over my knee.

So when it became time to explore a switch in roles the need to give Julie some leverage was paramount. Two years before she suggested feminising me we purchased the chastity device. Two years. The intention was that i would still take on the role of "controller" but under the provision that I was in chastity and she kept the key. Initially the cage was a toy. Uncomfortable and unnatural, and although i cannot really recall a change in her persona at the time, it must have given Julie food for thought.

She didn't, and still doesn't, read up on any aspects of dominating her husband. I would avidly digest all i could. My initial readings into chastity led me to the world of feminisation.

It reminded me of how i used to wear my moms clothes as a young boy.

Still in my faux dom role i would scour chatrooms for crossdressers and sometimes i would put on some of Julie's things when she wasn't at home.

It was during this period of "switching over", about 3 years ago, that she started me in panties on a regular basis. She started buying undies specifically for me. It was a kinky game that i was more than willing to play. Sometimes i would be in panties and chastity and other it would be just panties. I slowly began making myself smooth. Starting with my pubic hair. Then after a few months my chest. A few months after that my legs. Now I shave all over - even my arms - and tend to my eyebrows like a good sissy. But the kinky feeling has gone. It's not a sexual thing to be a sissy. It's just a sissy thing. A man who wants to wear pretty things and be fancied by other men.

And so the chastity is perhaps my way of saying "Notice me!" And if i wear it without question perhaps she will show more interest in me. And if she doesn't show more interest in me, then at least i am trying to keep it real. Just by virtue of my own denial of pleasures i allow myself the luxury of feeling something - frustration ? excitement? - that only a few feel.

It is an experience that i cannot adequately put into words. One must experience controlled chastity to understand it. To be a man that cannot penetrate. To be a man that cannot stray. To be reticent. To be a man that sits to pee and wipes the drips from his chastity cage. When arousal only leads to frustration. When temptation becomes something to be avoided. To be comfortable keeping one's eyes downcast. To think of one's keyholder every 5 minutes. To wonder when the release will be and then to feel shame that you only want to be let out to masturbate. To feel so helpless.

Do the feelings of frustration lessen over time if the chastity is worn for weeks? I have only worn it for a week at the most. what would a month be like? That can only be known be trying it. Is Julie strong enough to put me through that?

I realise that i am such a novice when it comes to being a sissy. Maybe i need a Master. And that's the trouble. I spend so much time thinking about what i need and what i want and how i should go about getting it. I spend not enough time thinking about what Julie needs. But what if she needs nothing and is happy. Happy with the status quo. Then i am resigned to not being as happy as i could be. Content maybe. So i should just carry on. Even though the thrill and kinkiness has subsided, the acts that initially gave those thrills are still there. Was i really so excited about panties that i masturbated just because i was wearing them? How easily i slip into my nighties now. How normal to paint my toes and shave under my arms. How unmanly i have become. Yet it's so natural.

I like the attention that men give me when i go on webcam dressed in my skimpies. I like the way that Julie likes it. She doesn't go over the top. Just accepts that her husband is a sissy.
When did it become normal for me to watch men playing with themselves on their cams. When did I start thinking about cocks as often as i do now. When did the ladies i work with become so scary to me. So untouchable yet so sexy. It just happened very slowly. And now here i am.

Sometimes i am still too controlling and i desire her to be more involved. I want to see her enjoying herself more. She could have everything if she wanted it. Anyone she wanted. She could go out more and meet new people. She could rediscover herself as a sensual and sexual woman.

Instead she hasn't changed. Only i seem to have changed. And i wish she would. And there i go again - wishing. What if she said one day that she was going on a date? How would i react. In my fantasy i would be excited and scared. Excited to be actually living out the fantasy of beuing a sissy cuckold, yet scared that i may lose her.

Last night she told me i would be locked in chastity for at least a week. I wonder whether that was just idle chat. We are due to go out tonight to watch daughter in a concert. I would be surprised if Julie made me wear the cage for that. I am most conscious of the fact that i should not ask to be let out. Usually if i ask to be let she lets me out, depending on the urgency with which i ask her. So this morning i made a pointed effort not to to bring up my chastity. Julie did ask me, however, if i was ok with wearing it for work. I said yes no problem and she smiled and said OK.

I have the lock hanging outside my panties and when i walk there is the faint sound of the lock knocking against the cage. Mistress also had me wear a tight fitting shirt today. Well, she didn't make me. It was all that had been ironed. I told her last night i didn't like the shirt because it was too tight and made me feel self conscious about my body. I am not particularly comfortable with the way my stomach and man-boobs show through the shirt. My stomach is reasonably flat, although not as flat as it could be. My body isn't that bad really. It's just that i don't like showing it off at work. Especially my chest. It's certainly not flat anymore, and even a tight vest worn under the shirt doesn't keep them completely flat. When i go outside for a smoke i put a coat on so that i hide them.